“Sometimes people in our lives come in a season. When the time comes for this season to end, surely this people will leave just like how a Maya lefts its nest to migrate in another place. It hurts so much especially if you grown up with this people and you were able to build a deep friendship with them. It was like a lump in your heart was taken and a part of you was missing. It causes you a great pain as if you were desolated in a deserted land. It is painful and you are in a denial phase where in you think that everything is just a dream and in just a spark everything will go how it used to be...But in reality, it won’t. You have to move on and pick up what is left in your life and let healing takes its place. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.”
This is what I learned in the past week. I was sad and lonely because some people who were very close in my heart left me. They were the ones who trained and guide me during the time that I started in the ministry. I was able to develop a relationship with them and I treat them as a second family, my second moms. Because of the attachment that I have with them, I became emotional and broken hearted when they left. Being an introvert, I didn’t release these feelings of mine and instead I lingered in them. I caved in silent sadness and hidden depression. It was like I was shattered into pieces.