There are times that I want to fly.
At times, I want to seize from my existence.
I want to break free from the challenges;
That's why I think about going to Heaven.
I wonder how will I look like at heaven.
Will I have a golden halo and white wings?
Shall I play the Lyra and sing?
Shall I dance unceasingly to give praise?
I wonder what will happen if I am not a human.
Shall I be a seed that sprouts to become a tree?
Shall I be a sparrow that flies on the sky?
Or shall I be a fish that swims beneath the seas?
Maybe, if I am not a human,
I am a stone from the mountains.
I won't feel anything for I do not live.
I am part of a cycle that's why I exist.
Will I be happy if I am not a human?
I guess, I won't be happy at all.
Only humans can give praise to God.
Only humans can think and feel with his heart.
Am I a fool for I think like this?
Maybe, if you read these writings,
You will conclude that I am crazy.
For I pen such kind of thinking.
You know what, one thing I realized,
I am indeed blessed for I am a human.
It is for the redemption of humanity,
That Christ came, died, and rose again.
Wistful thinking may occur to me at times.
But at the end of the day, I am thankful.
Though I am a sinner and I commit mistakes,
And crimson of blame clothes me,
YAHWEH Picked me up...
Because of my calloused mind, I am unworthy.
But Christ saved me from eternal damnation.
I am a carnal being for I always sin.
But Christ purify me from all my iniquities.
Someday when I come Home, I'll be perfect.
Because I am redeemed by Christ,
His perfectness will envelop me.
His righteousness will clothe me for Eternity.
While I am here on earth,
I will always be dependent on Him.
To finish the race of what we call "Life"
For someday after all these things:
I will meet my Maker and Daddy,
HE will wipe away all the tears that I've shed.
Together, we will watch everything that I did.
He will hug me and utter this line:
"Well done, My Good and faithful servant."